Sometime in the Fall of 2008, I slipped into an existential crisis, I hadn’t been knowledgeable about it till a sensible friend packaged my flailing thought and feelings and feelings into a thematic box that consisted of such famous philosophical authors as Kierkegaard, Nietzche, Kafka, and Sartre. Yes, certainly, I’d been searching for God, a greater power, a reason for being, my place on the planet, truth … however, was not everybody?

Bikram yoga

In March 2009, I’d a complete nervous breakdown, and my life, as I understood it, was imploding. After eleven years with one company followed by a really short stint with another, I discovered myself unemployed, in monetary distress, physically unfit, with high blood pressure, depressed, filled with self pity, doing not have faith and devoid of vim and vigor. I crossed a limit of humility and phoned a friend who owned a local Bikram Yoga school, and asked for a work/study plan, I knew I required yoga back in my life, with or without the monetary ways to pay for it.

I first exercised Bikram Yoga while training for a marathon a number of years earlier. It was the best match to the comprehensive pavement-pounding on my joints and bones. It was ‘love at Pranayama’ for me, I truly believe there’s a yoga practice for everyone, which practice for me is the Hatha series of breathing and Asanas in the heat as programmed and directed by Bikram Choudhury. In 2013, I returned to the practice for numerous months. I was exercising nearly every day, however faltered once my career got a hold on my life 24/7. I knew that step one from the darkness was to get back into my practice, a step toward restoration of my self-confidence, faith in God, balance, and renewal of my spirit.

From the Bikram internet site: ‘According to Bikram, the mind has 5 elements which as they establish, bring equanimity to the mind. These are: faith, self-control, determination, concentration, and patience.’ My everyday moving meditation practice exercises and hones these skills which are natural however lost by lots of, the moment I hear ‘please stand in the middle of your mats, heels and toes touching,’ my mind goes to a location of extreme focus and peace. My wellness has enhanced exceptionally after only several months back into nearly everyday practice, my blood pressure is typical, my sleep patterns are normal, and my cravings is typical.

More importantly, my spirit’s healing. Our Bikram teachers commonly state to us when transitioning from Camel into Savasana: ‘acknowledge everything that’s coming up today, and let it go.’ Words of such wisdom are motivated from my day-to-day practice and now applied to all facets of my life. I’ve the ability to totally welcome each new day with a sense of peace, significant focus, and as Bikram says: ‘Bengal Tiger Strength.’